First things first, Happy New Year! I hope that your holiday season was filled with joy and peace. I think we can all agree that 2020 2020’d and it was a mess in so many ways so I don’t even want to waste my time doing a recap. CliffsNotes: I’ve lacked motivation for so long and I’ve failed to be consistent in updating this blog. I have no excuses to give, it is what it is so let’s move on, shall we?
I’ve been in deep thought over the past few weeks and I’m not even sure how or if I’m going to be able to fully share the thoughts I’ve been thinking. But here I am releasing on this laptop… It’s the beginning of the year and it’s beautiful to see how hopeful so many people are. It’s me, I’m people. Last year was nothing like I wanted it to be but I realize how much power I have to make changes in 2021. We can’t control everything but there are elements in our life that we have dominion over. It’s what we do with those elements that’s important.
When I woke up this morning to the same clutter I had since last week I realized that I’m still me and the date on the calendar ain’t gon’ change nothing unless I change something. I’ve also been insta-story watching and noticed that even in the new year, other people are still on their bulls#!t whether it be partying in large crowds without masks, eating horribly, or simply doing more talking about goals than taking action.
After looking at my phone like my favorite gif lady above, I had to check myself. I had to ask myself “why do I even care if folks are engaged in shenanigans?” I will never understand why folks feel the need to still go to the club after all that has transpired but I can’t control them so why am I giving them my energy? Knowing me, I’m probably still going to voice my concern about pandemic party shenanigans occasionally because it sucks to see people be so selfish that they endanger the lives of others but the personal lives of other people will no longer take up my mental real estate.
If you read my book, I Wrote This Book To Pay My Student Loans, then you already know I identify a semi-judgmental person. I’d like to believe in the lyric “only God can judge me” but I believe that judgement is natural as we all form opinions about things. What’s unnatural is social media and constantly being bombarded with content to form judgement about. I no longer have a desire to let the lives of others impact my day. This year I’m choosing to run my own race and accept that people have the right to make decisions whether I think they’re good or bad. Or in other words, what other people eat doesn’t make me poop so I shouldn’t be concerned with what they do or don’t do.
There are things I do (and have done) in my life that would make people want to shake their heads so I need to keep that in mind. Adulting isn’t always easy and people have their vices. As humans we make mistakes and instead of focusing on the mistakes that others make, we should be doing our best not to make many of our own. So here I am with this New Year’s declaration to mind my own dang business and go hard for myself and my family. I’m focused on building a legacy and I ain’t got the time to do that if I’m worried about what other people have going on. I’m gonna be a unapologetically selfish this year and work on the things about me that may warrant negative judgment.
If you read this post to the end, I’m grateful. I’ve got a lot to work on and I’m deciding to stop assuming I have all the time in the world because I don’t. This is to be continued for sure… I look forward to sharing more of my journey with you this year but for now, I need to go clean up because that clutter is still staring at me, lol.